My World - It's Ever Changing

A Career Change Perhaps?

2009-01-19T23:32:00.001-06:00

This weekend at my brother-in-law's birthday dinner, my sister-in-law asked me where I am working right now. She thought I was still doing the volunteer day care thing. So I told her. She said to me that i should get a job working in a hospital. She's a Unit Secretary. She told me that alot of hospitals will pay for you to become a nurse since there's such a shortage.

Over the years.. for a long time infact... I've had alot of people say I should go into nursing. I love helping people and I am the first to come to the rescue when there's a "boo boo" about. But I just never thought I'd have the intelligence to make it. It's a very hard and competitive course. So I am going to be doing alot of thinking about this. I mean if I do do it and become an RN, I could get a job anywhere. I'd make really good money. And I would be able to stand on my own two feet with or without John around. Meaning if we got divorced, or he died, then I wouldn't have to worry. As it stands now, if one of those two things were to happen, I'd be seriously screwed.

I asked John if he thinks I have what it takes to make it and he says yes. I am going to talk to my mom about it and I am going to try to talk to my ex Jim about it as he and his wife just finished their nursing course about a year ago. The reason I ask others is because they see me more clearly. I am very negative on myself, whereas they can see me. And they all know I want them to be brutally honest with me about it. I don't want to start it if they don't think I could do it. That'd be a waste of time and energy and money.So that's whats going on with me today and the past couple of days.

2009-01-18T10:30:00.001-06:00

This is today's image on an app I have on myspace. Isn't this just too adorable?? Mummy hugging her baby. You can clearly see the love on that mummy's face.

Starting a New Journey

2009-01-11T23:17:00.001-06:00

I've decided I am going to read up... or study if you would... on my own, about Buddhism. My father always found it interesting and I think I might find that peace of mind I've been trying to find within myself.

And if I don't find that, at least I will be learning something new and that's always good. It's builds more understanding about a part of the world I do not really know about.

Welcome 2009

2008-12-31T19:49:00.000-06:00

May this year be bigger and brighter than the rest.
May the blessings outweigh the setbacks.
May happiness surround you always.
Dance like no one's watching.
Sing like you're in the shower.
And may there be a spring in your step.
And a glow in your heart.
Always.

Wow!

2008-12-27T19:06:00.008-06:00

It's been a long time since I wrote here. I think what I need to start doing is posting what I write in LJ here on this blog. I think I was going to do that before, but never did, but now that I have more than just one person reading it, then perhaps I should.

I will put my last LJ post here. Well I will put up what I posted as I can't just copy and paste this.. LOL.

Twas merry Christmas wishes from our babies, Winni, Thor and Lucy. And for my dear friend Bethanna, my fish died months and months ago. We now have 3 kittens. We got them when they were around 4 weeks old, they are now almost 7 MONTHS old! LOL. They were from a feral mommy who brought them to a lady's door one day and John's mother's friend called to see if we wanted them. We just wanted two, but what more would be one more. They are a handful I must say but I love them. Right now they are sleeping... which is nice.. as its quiet now.

So here's my babies christmas pictures!

Here's Thor. He's our biggest baby, weighing around 8 pounds, he's 18 inches long from nose to bum and he's a long haired, that looks black, but he's really a dark chocolate brown. He's powerful so Thor suits him, but he's a baby at the same time, needing his "mommy" to cuddle up to!

This is Lucy, named after Lucy from the Chronicles of Narnia. She's the more subdued, layed back one. Very long 18 inches as well, 6.5-7 pounds and a medium hair. She's sweet.

And Winni! Named after Winnipeg where I used to live. She's our Diva. Our Princess... she told us so... LOL. She's also our smallest kitty, being only 15 inches long 6 pounds and also a medium hair. She's sweet too, but likes to start trouble.

So there you have it! Merry Christmas from My Family to Yours!

I got Fishies

2008-05-25T22:57:00.002-05:00

I bought my very first aquarium yesterday. It's just a one gallon tank. And inside I placed 5 neon tetras. They are very shy fish, very nervous fish. Yesterday I had no plants for them to hide in. Today I bought one and a fake clam shell. They are much much happier. I'd name them, but it would be hard to figure out who is who. And if I do well at keeping them, I will upgrade in about 6 months to a year to around a 10 gallon tank. For now however, this is nice. It sits beside my desk.

giggles

2008-05-07T14:17:00.004-05:00

Okay, I have given my gmail account permission to put in entries. This was the only way I could figure out how not to have to sign out of gmail or close my IE page in order to sign into my blogger. So that's why it says El and El for users. LOL.

So I went to JCPenney today and picked up two new blouses suitable for work. Now I really will have to buy clothing. I love JCPenney. They have the best sales.

Then I mailed off some stuff to my mom.

Now I'm waiting for John to get home.

Today is a wonderful day!!

Over the Moon!!!

2008-05-06T16:52:00.000-05:00

Okay, a week and a half ago, I received my EAC card. Which is my employment authorization card (Green card will probably be another 6 months or so as they are crazy busy now). So, I went to a couple of places for a job, did a few online apps, and then joined Monster.com. I wanted to work in a field that wasn't fast food or restaurant. There's nothing wrong with it, it's just after almost 17 years of it, I'd had enough.

So, I applied for call center work/customer service. Then on a whim, I decided to apply for data entry/clerical. I knew I had a few qualities they'd like, but I had no real office experience. but I thought, "What the hell! It won't hurt anyone to apply."

That was on the 28th. On the 29th I got a call from Human Resources from Leviton Manufacturing. I couldn't even remember what it was that I applied for. It was data entry operator. Full time. So I went on my interview last friday. That is when I was happy that I did so well on my typing test. I thought I as mediocre to be honest. Apparently not.

I loved it the second I walked into the security building of the company. Everyone was smiling. They were joking around with me. It was the most wonderful atmosphere. It was so great that when it was time for my interview I wasn't nervous in the slightest. Normally, I'd be all flubbering when I talk and turning 5 shades of red. I am very shy at interviews normally (Hence why I stayed at A&W for so long. That and I liked the people). They kept asking me if I'd get bored, doing the same thing over and over again. I reassured her that would be fine that at my old job, I did the same thing over and over again, that only the faces really changed.

The lady who'd be my boss really liked me. Said I was very personable and would be excellent in customer service. I told her I'd like to learn my way through the company and that entry level position such as data entry would be perfect. She liked that answer.

So, they said they'd call my references and get back to me. But they didn't say when. I figured it would be yesterday. As the lady said I may be able to start wednesday.

Monday I thought for sure I didn't get it. That someone more "qualified" got it. I was convinced. Poor John. He was so good through my swings of madness last night. Hehe.

Spent most of today outside. No calls in the morning. But.....

I got in this afternoon....

Four new calls....

Four new messages...

Last message.... WAS FROM LEVITON!!!!

I called back, got her voice mail. She called me back.

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!

*huge smile, tears in her eyes*

I officially work in an office - well as of this friday coming. Sure it's data entry, but it's new to me. I am so excited.

My first job in America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just wanted to say...

2008-05-04T11:00:00.001-05:00

HAPPY SUNDAY!!!

Here's a nice little picture I took in Central Park a couple of weeks back. Magnolia trees... mmmmmmm... pretty!

So...

2008-05-04T00:11:00.002-05:00

I got my authorization to work here in NY now. Applied for a number of jobs - let's hope something works out very soon.

Spring here in New York is pretty sweet. I took a ton of pictures over the few times I have ventured to Central Park. And I am hoping to make it there on Tuesday.

I really don't have too much to say. Just been thinking about how I have been neglecting my various blogs and stuff and how I should keep them more up to date.

I will post more when I have something cool to say.. LOL :)

2008-05-02T13:18:00.001-05:00

Heaven has another Angel

2008-03-28T22:43:00.001-06:00

Today - friday - John's dad passed away. He was very sick over the past two weeks. But we thought he was doing so much better after they drained the fluid off his lungs and heart last night. Even the surgeon said that today he was responding very well. But then, this afternoon just before 4, he flat-lined. The chest tube to drain any fluid was pouring blood and when they opened him up there was no blood to his heart. There was nothing they could do.

John's dad was only 74 years old. In fact he spent his birthday in SICU with tubes in his body. He was a very sweet man with a HUGE heart and I will miss him alot. He was my second chance at a dad and now he's gone too.

*closes her eyes and talks to him* I will miss you Handsome. You still had many stories to tell me. And now you can have as many meatball heroes and pizzas as you wish. Love you.

Happy Easter

2008-03-23T09:08:00.001-06:00

Glitter Easter Graphics

Why I haven't really been around

2008-03-22T10:21:00.002-06:00

Not last monday but the monday before, John's mom went in for a scheduled surgery to remove a heart aneurysm. She had a little bit of trouble the following day, but was home 4 days later. And now she is doing well, thank goodness.

Well this Tuesday, she heard her husband calling for her. He had fallen down. Well they took him to the hospital. BIG TIME problems. He was rushed from one hospital to another one to have emergency surgery. His aorta had a tear. From his thigh up. When they opened him up the aneurysm they found ruptured. They had to chill his body to 15C so his brain and organs wouldn't function. Basically he was dead for 25 minutes the surgeon said. Well the surgery itself was a success, but they couldn't stop the bleeding. It took over SIX HOURS for them to finally stop it.. well slow it down.

They told us (all of us were at the hospital that day for over 12 hours) he will probably be asleep for 48 hours. Being it was such a major surgery. He was awake 5 hours later. He's doing well now. Though it's going to be a VERY long road to recovery. I am betting he will be in the hospital for at least 4 weeks. Yesterday when John and I went to see him, his eyes were open and focused. He can't talk for the ventilator tube down his throat and that annoys him ALOT. He's off the heart meds they were giving him. Now it's a slow process of taking him off the rest of the stuff. He's in SICU. They finally doped him up so he was forced to sleep, as he kept fighting the drugs they were sedating him with. So we didn't go yesterday. But he's doing alright. It's amazing really. The doctors said they almost lost him a few times during the surgery.

Today, John called his sister and they said his oxygen/ventilator is down to 60%, which is great, as it means he is breathing more on his own. We probably won't see him today, though I do want to, but it's not my decision to make. He is knocked out, but it doesn't mean he can't hear me. He's a wonderfully sweet man and my second chance at a dad, so I am kinda upset I can't see him today. Oh well. Maybe on Easter.

So for the past two weeks, we have been visiting his family ALOT. I am tired.

That is why I have been very quiet lately. Just haven't had the time to write. Though I will Irene comment on your trip which looked amazing soon.. Okay?

Hope you have a wonderful weekend and a Happy Easter.

2008-03-17T04:00:00.001-06:00

St Patrick's Day Glitter Pictures

Biometrics

2008-03-05T09:42:00.002-06:00

Well this morning I went and got the biometrics done. My appointment was at 10, but I got there at around 9:35 and was on the bus by 10! LOL. It was neat watching my fingerprints being smooshed on a screen. Now, I hope I will get my work permit very soon. I need to start working again. This sitting at home is driving me crazy. I mean like right now. I am sitting here wondering what to do with the rest of the day. oh well.

And it would seem I am making good use of John's medical benefits. Two weeks ago I went and got my eyes checked. They are fine, just a stronger prescription is needed. And with his benefits, I got new glasses free of charge and they are pretty nice. The next day - off to the dentist. Alot of work needs to be done. Last week - deep cleaning or gum treatment as they call it of all my teeth along with the polishing and fluoride (will talk about that in a minute). I will be going back in next week for work on my cavities. And then last wednesday happened. I did my usual stuff in the morning and then decided for my workout I'd take a long, fast-paced walk. I walked all the way to the nearest movie theatre and stuff. Which was a total of 54 blocks (27 each way). I did that in an hour. A good workout. Then about an hour later I took a shower. As I was drying off, I looked at my legs. Three red lumps around the sock line. I rolled my eyes. And then all my joints started to get sore. Wrists, ankles, knees, elbows. If any of you can remember, this happened to me in October of 2006 (I looked at my LJ last night). The doctor said it was some sort of joint inflammatory disease, but nothing major. though I do recall him telling me later that he really didn't know what it was, but that since I was alright, no need to worry.

*sigh* And now it's back, almost 1.5 years later. So that means now I get to use John's doctor benefits. It's not as bad as last time - yet. But I can feel it and I know it's not just my mind. Went to the doctor but he won't do anything for me until I have a complete physical. *eye roll* So I am hoping my ankles won't swell like last time. So far - so good. But I guess I am making good use of John's benefits from the union he works for.

Anyhow, the dentist. It was good. They put on soothing music on the iPod for me, sprayed some aromatherapy stuff on me to help calm me and even gave me sunglasses to wear so I wouldn't have to stare into the bright light. They numb your gums with that gel and because my front lower teeth are very sensitive - gave me the needle for that area. One girl talked to me while helping the other girl who did my teeth in no time. First the machine thingy that goes into the "pockets" to scrap out the plaque/infection, then manually with the pick thing, and then another time with the machine. Then they polished my teeth, gave me fluoride and sent me on my merry way. I said to the girls, "That's it??" They laughed and told me I was great and free to go. So I let them know I was shocked that that was all there was to it. And then thanked them. John told me he was standing at the door watching for 30 minutes to see if I would start to cry. I told him that though I may be afraid I wouldn't cry in front of them as what was the point. And besides, it wasn't that bad. Though I thought it was sweet that he watched over me.

There were moments when it did hurt as the numbing gel just takes the edge off, but my teeth look so clean it's amazing. Now I just wish they were white.. LOL. The next day my front bottom teeth were sensitive and a little sore, but nothing major at all. I am really surprised. I am looking forward to the filling of my cavities. It's a water laser, so no numbing, no drilling and virtually no pain.

Gentle Dental is amazing!! I will go every 6 months from now on. Though I have to go every 3 for the next year to see if my periodontal diesease is clearing up. They have been the first positive experience with the dentist I have EVER had. It really makes a difference.

So that is what has happened lately for me.

Don't make me go... :(

2008-02-25T13:22:00.002-06:00

I don't like dentists. I never have - never will. I went last week. Periodontal Disease, I think 2 cavities and redoing of two fillings. Okay. I can handle the fillings and the cavities. What I CAN'T handle is the deep root cleaning they are going to perform in 2 hours. Where they go below the gum line, scrap your teeth and roots and then send you on your merry way.

The thought is seriously upsetting my stomach. John knows I am afraid, but he doesn't understand as he loves the dentist. So though he thinks he is being supportive, it just isn't doing the trick.

Yes, I know I will be fine. Yes I know the pain is temporary. I know this.

Still doesn't mean I can't be afraid and wish I didn't have to go. I know I will freak out when I see all the blood on the thingy that sits on your chest while they clean. And I will freak when they tell me to rinse and I see all the blood. John got it done last week. He said it didn't hurt but when he rinsed it was as red as tomato soup. His teeth are in good condition as he always went to the dentist. I haven't had a cleaning in a decade. Last cleaning I did have took two visits and the hygenist calling me a suck for crying because he kept jabbing my gums with the pick thing. Not a very good experience.

*cringes*

So please, anyone who is scared of the dentist as much as I am, think soothing thoughts for me?

I really wish I didn't have to go...

This goes out to Irene!

2008-02-21T10:29:00.000-06:00

Happy Birthday Glitter Graphics

I hope you have a GREAT Day Girl!!!!

My Weekend!

2008-02-19T11:51:00.000-06:00

Well it was nice as it was a long weekend for John. Saturday and Monday we went to his storage unit where we organized his collection of comic books. We were there around 5 hours on saturday and 2 on monday. We brought along some snacks and soda and just sat, looked at comic covers and put them in the appropriate box. It was more fun than I thought it was. The older man who was running the place had this radio station on that played older music - stuff I remember from when I was a kid. It was fun singing to the songs.

We had dinner at his parent's yesterday. Chicken Parmesan, meatballs and sauce, manicotti, salad, bread, apple pie, tiny little cream puffs, lots of laughs, great company (his parents, his younger brother and his wife, and Mr and Mrs Bryck) and many stories of times gone by when John's dad worked for the telephone company. Boy he did alot of pranks. LOL! It was good.

Also I found a radio station here that plays basically classic rock. I love all music, but this made me happy. Made me feel more "at home." Now if I could just get my barrings, then I would be happy. Still can't figure out north, south, east and west. LOL. It's all messed up. You think it wouldn't make a big deal right?? Wrong. It really bothers me for some reason. Oh well, one day I will figure it out.. LOL. I also installed CIV IV on my computer now that it can handle it and it's fun. I have sat and watched John play so many times and now I have it instead of CIV III. He gladly gave me CIV IV as he has CIV IV - Beyond the Sword now. LOL.

So all in all I had a really good weekend. I feel so content and at peace. but I should get back to cleaning. John's younger brother and wife (Michael and Danielle) are supposed to come over for Leftovers tonight and I want to make sure this place is spotless. You know how it is.

Anyhow, I hope you had a good weekend. And if not, I hope you have a better week.

TTFN.

Oh, one more thing. We might go to Comicon this year!!! John's friends Liz and Jimmy live in San Diego, and Jimmy gets press passes so we can get in for free. So we will see!! It would be too cool :)

Valentine's Day

2008-02-14T19:41:00.002-06:00

Well this is my first Valentine's Day in the good 'ole US of A. And how romantic it is... ROFL!!

Actually it's been quite sweet. John got me a nice card and some chocolate (not that I need it) and I got him a card and baked him a cake. Now you may think.. "Ooooooh you baked him a cake. Big deal."

Well it is for two reasons... no 3. First of all, it's the first time I have made a cake for him. Secondly this is the second time in his ENTIRE life that a girl baked him a cake and thirdly, it wasn't just your average bake-a-cake-and-ice-it cake.

John LOVES comics. As in LOVES. So this is what I made him today. Granted it was my first time doing icing like this so it's not the best, but he liked it and next time it will be even better!!

So here I present to you... *drum roll*

Captain America's Shield!!! Or as John calls it.. the Captain Americake.. LOL

Did you Know?

2008-02-10T19:54:00.001-06:00

Did you know that if the ice continues to melt at its current rate that polar bears will be extinct by the end of this century??

Very sad and extremely scary. Don't you think?

This evening I signed up for the WWF e-Newsletter at www.worldwildlife.org.

I bought a 2008 large wall calendar of theirs and there was a brochure included showing what you recieve when you make donations. Some of them were really cute. I have always wanted to donate but have never had the money to do so. So once I am working and have the money I am going to.

I am a big time lover of wildlife. In fact that whole Tiger incident in California where the young man was killed by the tiger at the zoo after they antagonized it and she jumped out of her enclosure really upset me. Why?? Because there was no need to kill that tiger. Siberian tigers are critically endangered. They could have given her a tranquilizer and put her in safer quarters until they rebuilt her own "home." She was doing what is in her nature to do. Yes the zoo was at fault. The enclosure should have been properly made. But they didn't have to kill her. She was beautiful.

Look at her...

Sometimes the human race gets me very angry. I really can't wait until I can truly afford to help in my way. It won't be long either. Hopefully in a few months time.

Until then.. think of the wildlife out there and how beautiful and fragile this planet is. Be kind.

The Waiting Game

2008-02-09T23:46:00.000-06:00

Well paperwork was sent in, now it's just the waiting game. Waiting to see when I get my appointment for biometrics. Waiting for the interview. Waiting to see how long it will be until i am granted work. Which I hope isn't too long as John's mom knows a man (used to be her boss), who will give me an office job once I am able to work and it will be close to home. So I don't wanna screw that up by having to wait forever as I really don't want to do retail again. Office work would be great, though at this point in time I will be happy with ALMOST anything once I am given permission as I really need the money.

Most of the thank you cards have been sent out from the shower and wedding. Just have another 15 to do.

Spent a day and a half scraping off old paint from the kitchen flooring. Seems when they painted in here before he moved in they did a crappy job. *eye roll* So I got the funny idea of sitting on the floor with WD40 and a small scrapper and taking it alllllllllllllllllllllll off. Well it paid off as the floor looks so much better than it did before! My man was impressed :D

I am in a strange mood lately. I want bright colourful things around me. I'd love to go buy a small bouquet of flowers, but right now that wouldn't be money smart. I love my ivy plant, and she's growing like crazy, but it's not the same as some nice bright flowers in a vase. LOL. I am crazy!!

Love the weather here in the winter. Gets chilly but not like insane cold. I surely can get used to this. Though I can't wait for spring. I am sure it will be wonderful.

Anyhow, enough for now. Hope you are having a fantastic weekend!!

Ciao for now :)

A Colony of Cats

2008-01-30T13:14:00.000-06:00

Over this past weekend, John took me to a hospital close to where he used to live on Long Island. He wanted to show me where he found a colony of cats a couple of years ago.

So we went there. The grounds this hospital is on is huge. He found the smattering of low-lying bushes where he first met these cats. And sure enough, if you looked hard enough you could see white and gray cats. All healthy looking yet not friendly. Feral cats? I guess you could call them that.

They get fed by what we assume are the hospital staff. There were foil pans near the building, hidden in the bushes filled with dry food and containers of water. They also took boxes, put straw in them, put a black garbage bag around them to create a wind-proof shelters.

These cats were beautiful.

John told me the first time he went there, there were kittens. Tons of kittens and as soon as he walked out of his car towards the building they all came running to see him. He picked them and they licked him and purred as their parents watched from beneath the bushes.

He's thinking of going this year when they have kittens and maybe take two of them. I am not sure I could take them away from their parents, but I also wonder if we did would it be better for them?

Any thoughts?

Hi

2008-01-24T20:36:00.000-06:00

Just posting for the sake of posting. I really don't have much to say. I do have a new plant - an ivy - whom I have named Henrietta. In the week I have had "her" she has grown quite a bit. I am hoping to get a larger pot and some potting soil for her this weekend so she can be moved into a place where her roots can spread out as her roots are starting to show through the drainage holes in the bottom.

Still trying to motivate myself to wake up earlier. The typical time is around 10 since I have moved here, but if I can get John to come to bed around 11, then I just might stay up when he leaves for work at 5:45 in the AM. At least be up around 8. I set his alarm once he leaves and I still just get up, turn it off and curl back up. I suppose it's because I can't work yet. I am hoping it won't be too long once I hand in the papers. I am starting to go nutty.

Well that's about it. Until next time...

Heh

2008-01-23T09:21:00.000-06:00

I have to admit there are times when I miss Winnipeg. Why? Only because it was familiar to me. I knew where everything was. Here in NYC I have no real clue how to get anywhere.

But the one thing I am NOT missing is the temperatures. Right now @ 9AM their time it's -40 with the windchill. Which is the same in C or F, hence why I didn't specify. Yes.. minus 40!!!

I sureeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee don't miss That! *giggles*

Here's a wedding pic :)

And another.. This one is a tad blurry. For some reason most of the ceremony pics turned out that way.

I'm Alive!!!

2008-01-20T13:41:00.000-06:00

Okay I am alive. Still have the rest of immigration to get through - but I am still alive. I need to call USCIS and ask if I put my maiden name or married name on the forms... I have no clue!!! LOL.

The wedding was nice. I will put some pics up here once I send them from John's puter to mine.

Yes I am finally back up online!! On my own computer!!! Which got a nice little upgrade from John's friend Paul! I am very excited.

However I must get going for now. We are off to Target so I can get a cheap pair of sneakers.

It's getting closer

2007-11-16T18:52:00.001-06:00

Only two weeks of work left to go. I sent out the moving documents to the movers.

I am excited and nervous. Last night had a breakdown while on the phone with my man. He laughed and said I was doing just fine. I feel a little better today, though I still wish I was there right now.

*sigh*

I hope you are well Irene. Been thinking about you alot this past week and wondering if you felt the same roller coaster of feelings just before you moved to the States. I am ecstatic, don't get me wrong and I can't wait to marry John, but the little "Nagglers" that lurk in the darkest corners of my subconscious make me dizzy with so many emotions... LOL.

Soon...

Soon I will be there and he can hold me and let me cry all the stress of the past 6 months out. He even said if that is what I want him to do, he will, as long as they are happy tears. Andddddddddd... he said he would make lasagna for me too! Yum!!

Oh My Goodness!

2007-11-09T20:01:00.000-06:00

It has been FOREVER since I posted here. In fact I haven't really been posting anywhere as of late. Too busy with work, getting my wedding ceremony set up, getting the move set up and all that fun stuff. Most times I don't even want to be online. In fact, I mostly use my computer to watch movies now... LOL.

Anyhow, all is well. Fifteen more working days to go!!!!!!!!!!!! THEN I AM FREE!!!

Catch you on the flip side.

Wow

2007-08-09T23:24:00.000-05:00

A month has gone by without a post from me. Wow! Where has the time gone? Anyhow, things are stressful for me right now, though I am hoping they will calm down now. My interview date has been set but I am keeping it a secret. Why? Just feel the need to.
I am moving to my friend Jen's place in a couple of weeks. Should be interesting dealing with a houseful of people. For 10 years I have lived alone. Not sure how it's going to go. But rent free, I can't complain really.

Anyhow, that's about it for now. I am tired and need to go to bed. Hope you are all fine. :)

sneaky giggle

2007-07-08T17:29:00.001-05:00

Though pretty much everyone does it, I still feel like I did something wrong. LOL. Today, I managed to take my twin-size bed outside near the recycling bins. And the frame is in the garbage dumpster. I know you are technically supposed to call and have this stuff removed, but I just want to get rid of most of my things I am not taking, without having to pay someone to do it. Granted, I will still have to call someone to come take my stuff, but now it's one less thing they will have to remove, meaning less I will have to pay someone to move my junk out of here. Besides, someone will probably come and take the mattress and boxspring as they are in okay condition. The ONLY thing wrong with the mattress is the handles are pulling out of the mattress itself. so that means no charity organization will accept it. Still need to call someone to come pick up the clothing donations I have.

Have you ever experienced time when it moves both fast and slow at the same time? That is what i am going through right now. It's a very freaky feeling. and rather overwhelming.

But today has been a good day so far. Feeling calm and enjoying the silence...

It's been a while since I updated

2007-07-07T13:58:00.000-05:00

Anyhow, I have my med. results now. Still waiting on my police certificate which should be in my posession monday. My man went to his bank today, and they will write up the letters. Though they told him he's not allowed to open the envelope. Is that true Irene??

So I am thinking everything is going to go as planned now. Because once he gets his letters he can put the amounts of his accounts and such on the Affidavit of Support and get that notarized. Oh speaking of which - Irene, in the next couple of days, is there a chance I could give you a call? There's a few things on the forms he needs to fill out I don't understand. And if I don't understand them, he surely won't. So let me know if I can give you a call. Today I am going out all evening long, but tomorrow or in the evenings some time this coming week is good for me. Just let me know what is good for you.

It's hot here... bleh. And I have to go outside... *pouts* Oh well, we are all going to Applebees, so it will be worth it! hehehe :) Either than that, there's not much else to report. Life is going along as it always has, though a tad more stressed out and will remain that way until I have his paperwork in my hands. :) Then things will calm down some.

Anyhow, I should get going. Talk laters :)

I wonder

2007-06-27T09:05:00.000-05:00

For some reason my post I made on monday is not showing up here. So I thought I would do a test post to see if it will show up today.

Things are fine in my world, right now, which is very nice. i hope they stay that way :)

Okay now both of them are showing... LOL... weird.

Monday

2007-06-26T00:01:00.001-05:00

Has been a good day. The man and I are communicating so much more now and it's wonderful. We talked about alot tonight and it has left me smiling. Such a wonderful way to end my day. I mailed his ring today and he should have it either on thursday-monday. I hope he likes it. It will drive him nuts at first as he doesn't really like wearing any kind of jewelry. but I told him he will get used to it. :D

Now it's bedtime...

Edit: It's strange that this post doesn't seem to be showing... hmmmm...

Saturday - Part Deux ;)

2007-06-23T19:06:00.000-05:00

Well I am home. I went and saw Spiderman 3 and almost fell asleep during it. I know why. It wasn't because I didn't enjoy it, but because the theatre was so darn cold!! I even put my arms into my t-shirt (thank goodness I was wearing one that is big on me) to keep warm. Why do they do that?? Make it so cold??

Anyhow... good news. As I was walking through Polo Park, there was this kiosk called "Metalsmiths Accessories" and so I asked the girl if they had any men's rings in Sterling Silver. She showed me where they were and one popped right out at me. She asked what size. I said a 9.5. So I asked her to see the one that I liked and she sized it and it is a 9.5!!! So I bought it. I am wearing it right now to give it a connection to me for him. And I will take a picture of it in a moment... *runs off to take picture*

So there it is. A nice ring that i hope he enjoys and remembers the promises we have made to one another :)

Saturday

2007-06-23T13:53:00.000-05:00

Well things seem to be going alright with my man and I. I still have moments of insecurity and mistrust, but they are growing more and more faint. Let's hope I won't have to go through this again.

I ordered that ring for him and today I got an email stating it's discontinued. Three days later and I get this!! I am so very upset over this and haven't told him. So now I have to search for something quick. I didn't want to wait a long time for this. He needs it now. So I guess I will be looking this week for something. *sigh*

In a few minutes I am off to see Spiderman 3 again. He said he was going to see it today and since it's been awhile since I saw it, I thought I would see it again, just so we can have a really good talk about it. I love talking to him. It makes me feel so complete and warm inside. Then tonight he's off to see a friend whose wife is in a play and they are having a cast party. I am nervous about this... big time.. but I told him I will be okay as long as he calls me when he gets home. I hope he doesn't drink when he's there. Especially since he has to take the subway home.

So that is my day today. Will write more if anything happens.

Wednesday

2007-06-20T21:43:00.001-05:00

Well today was my med appointment. Wasn't bad at all. Just two viles of blood, one x-ray, ALOT of questions and a quick body check. I thought they'd do more, but nope. So that is done. I went to both the RCMP and the PSB for my police certificates. The one from the PSB will be here in about two weeks. My sweetie got his employment letter and will be filling out the online form in a couple of days. Then his sister in law will notarize it. Then it's just a matter of waiting for him to get the bank letter. Now all I have to do is photo copy everything, get together the proof needed and it will be finished!! :)

Things were much better today between the two of us. Less talk about the trust factor and more talk about the things we always used to talk about. It was nice. really nice.

Had Burger King for dinner... hehehehee... me bad. Tomorrow - Starbucks!! Thanks to two REALLY nice people who put a HUGE smile on my face the other day ;) I will have to return the treat one day in the future.

Anyhow that is all for now. I think. I have a feeling I was going to write more, but for some reason it just went away. Oh well... LOL.

Life as of today

2007-06-19T23:30:00.000-05:00

As you may have seen, I deleted my last post. Why? Because I didn't want to see it every time I came here and be reminded. I don't need to be reminded as I will never forget, but we are trying to work through this and are hoping for a happy ending. Alot of soul searching has been going on between the two of us and it's like this - we love one another, can only envision marrying each other, and aside from this one issue and yes it's a big one, we match on pretty much every level. And he is not afraid anymore. His words "I am more afraid of losing you, then anything else." And "You know all my faults, all my wrong-doings, all the bad things about me and inspite of those things, you still love me and that is not something you can find often - someone who loves you for you."

I am the only one he wants to marry. The ONLY one. I bought him a ring tonight. Sterling silver, from Sears. He asked me for a ring, so he can look at it and remember he has someone who loves him more than anything and because of that, he knows he will be okay. Here it is...

He has asked me to start my writing again, to allow him to get a kitten now instead of waiting for me to arrive, so he has something at home to keep him company. He asked me to promise him that we won't be a boring married couple, that we won't sit at home every night and not do anything fun. These things are easy to promise him. He just has to promise me what he has already and to keep that promise.

Tomorrow i am doing the medical appointment and probably the police certificate. Then I just need to get my pictures of the two of us off my camera and printed and gather up phone bills and cards and such he has sent me to prove to immigration we are a real couple. Then after that, I am waiting for him to finish his end. We are still hoping by the end of July, things will be totally done. And instead of arriving there just before christmas I am now thinking of moving there just before his birthday at the beginning of december and make his day very special.

I haven't been focusing on whether or not we will be accepted. But now that nervousness is coming back. I just hope we will be. The ONLY reason we won't be is they may think he doesn't make enough money. Or have enough saved. That terrifies me. Please keep good thoughts for us. We need them. I love him more than anyone ever. I can't bear the thought of being without him...

Oh and I got a VERY cool gift in the mail today! And I have thanked the people involved very much for this. It's going to be used very well!! :D Thank you!!

A new Pic of me

2007-06-11T19:41:00.001-05:00

These are the size 7 (oh yes, very VERY proud of myself) capri pants I bought the other day. I am excited as I haven't had any sort of summer clothing in a long time.. well aside from t-shirts. So here we go :)

Habitat for Humanity

2007-06-10T19:05:00.000-05:00

This is a post I put on my Live journal.. so instead of re-writing, I just copy and pasted it.

Well I just emailed the local Habitat for Humanity store here and asked them if they will take items of furniture that need some slight refurbishment. Which is my dresser, which is in perfect condition aside from the fact two little spots on the laminate on the dresser door has come off and two old kitchen chairs that need to have the seats redone. I then gave this man a list of the other items I will be not taking with me and I hope he's interested in ALL of them.

I would be happy and excited to give them to a good cause, but at the same time I am nervous to get rid of all my stuff in case my Man and I don't get accepted. And silly enough the ONLY thing that I can see us being denied is him not having enough money, which is crap because once I arrive I can apply for work authorization and begin to work once the EAC is sent to me. Which means I'd only have to be out of work there for maybe 2 months. I will have money saved up to get us through that time and therefore won't be an issue, but immigration can kinda be funny about these things.

If I could somehow put 5 grand in His account, then I wouldn't be worried at all, since I have no criminal record, no illnesses, and we are for real. But it's just this one thing... one thing... that gets me scared and not be able to enjoy this process like I was hoping I would.

I keep saying to myself "push through El.. it's going to be fine... push through..." Now if I could believe myself, we'd be happy! LOL

Ahh, the weekend is here! :)

2007-06-08T23:16:00.000-05:00

Well this week was one long week for me and I am happy to report it's finished. LOL. Today wasn't all that bad to be honest. Work flew by. And I had a Venti, non-fat, caramel frappuccino with java chips from Starbucks! It was sooooooooo yummy! Yes, The Square now has a Starbucks... just opened a month ago. This week I am going to try the Orange Creme Frappuccino, as Jen and my mom state it tastes like a Orange Creamsicle. Nummies!

My man worked over 12 hours today, but he had some awesome news. He got a Big bonus at work today and he said he put it in the savings account. This makes me very happy, not only for immigration reasons, but I am happy for him as he deserves it alot. I didn't get to talk to him for very long - 30 minutes - but it's okay, as he was exhausted and says he has another 12 hour day tomorrow. Big overtime which he also said he will put in the savings. Maybe things will go as planned and everything will be done by the end of July - mid August.

I am off to get my passport type photos done tomorrow. I sure hope they will look better then the one in my passport, it's horrible. My physical is in 12 days. Kinda nervous about it. I don't like doctors. And I am hoping to get my certificate from the RCMP that day too, which will complete all the forms needed to get.

I did my grocery shopping today, bought lottery tickets and did my laundry. Threw out spare parts of my futon, got rid of my bookcase yesterday and now it's gone. Now if I just had the muscle to get this bed I don't use out of here, I'd be happy. Charity won't take it because the boxspring is not in good shape and where the mattress handles are, it coming out, so I won't even ask if they will take it.

I bought 35 dollars worth of John Frieda Frizz-Ease products today, so my hair is going to be in great shape in a few months time! Speaking of hair, I should go shower, that way I don't have to get up earlier then I will tomorrow. I like to sleep in a bit.

so that's it for today. Hope you are all having a great weekend :)

Don't think Fast Food is my friend any longer :(

2007-06-06T21:47:00.000-05:00

Today I was bad and had a little burger with a small fry and gravy at work for my break. Well 30 minutes later, my stomach acids starting going wonky and I got the stupid backache and well it's hours later and is just starting to subside. I have noticed, that when I eat greasy foods, that sometimes I get this. I guess it's indigestion, and well I don't like it. So I made an 4 oz glass of water mixed with 1/2 teaspoon of baking soda and it helped a little.

Also, stress causes it too and I have been stressed with the man the past 24 hours. But I won't go into that. Let's say things are okay with us, that he has tried to reassure me we are fine, but his procrastination of things is getting to me. I told him he can get the employer letters now and wait for the bank letters for another few weeks. That he doesn't have to get all the letters at the exact same time. We shall see. I also told him that sometimes I wonder if he really wants me there. He didn't like that, but I told him that is how I am feeling. He's stressed out over money and that is the worst stress he can have. But then I told him he needs to realize I am stressed out too. That I am not always happy about the fact I am leaving my apartment when I don't even know if we will be accepted. That i am getting rid of my stuff without knowing what the near future holds. That I am leaving behind my country and all I am familiar with and it scares me. I was crying when I said this to him. He said he does understand this. So I told him to start doing his end of the paperwork now, to show me he wants me there. I told him if he is stressed out about money, to STOP SPENDING IT!!! That it won't be forever, but he has to put money away ASAP.

*wary sigh*

I know he loves me, but he just doesn't seem to go full tilt like I am. Lazy? Yeah he can be. Then again, we all can be. I just want to be there and start spending my life with him face to face. I want to snuggle with him. I miss that so very much. He's the best snuggler around. As long as his stuff is done by the end of July, I will be happy. That still gives him one month and 3 weeks. More than enough time to get money put away. Then you'll see a happy girl. Until it's time for my interview. Then I will be stressed big time. Because that will be the yes or no. If a yes is the answer, then you will see me the happiest you have ever seen me, as I am completely in love with my man....

Tuesday

2007-06-05T23:13:00.000-05:00

Well it was good at work, but at home... bleh. Hormones wacky making me emotional, insecure, paranoid and just down right angry at the little demons that like to play with my mind and heart. Tonight is the night John and I don't really talk to one another, as to give him space. Which is fine, but tonight the little buggers decided to play with my mind and heart making me wonder what he was doing. John DID answer my IM to him however about the comic he is selling that was sold on eBay by someone else. They got 510 dollars for it, so I had to let him know and hope he gets a good deal too. We "talked" for 15 minutes. It helped to calm the annoyances (yes I have many names for the icky beings that are invisible but annoying. And no I don't hear voices - just feel things that make me very untrusting of John and I don't like that), but only a little.

So I put in my latest favourite song - Seven Deadly Sins by Flogging Molly. Great Irish Pub type of music. You can't help but to do the jig or tap your feet. So it's on right now, on repeat and I have been dancing around my place and it's helping. Push through El... just push through... this too shall pass. *sigh*

But aside from this, I am in a good mood surprisingly. Have packed more today. My place is starting to look like a storage unit... LOL! Oh! I ordered more contact lenses! The place called me yesterday to tell me they are on sale. So I called today and ordered three boxes. Technically they should last about 3 months, but I wear them much longer than that... hehehe. And sometimes just wear my glasses. My contacts are the same for each eye, so I don't need two different prescriptions, even though my eyes are different prescriptions.. LOL. Which is good, as I don't have to remember which one goes in which. And it's good timing too as I have ONE lense left. Not one PAIR, but ONE. Don't ask. LOL.

I am getting a good pay check this week too. So I will be able to get all the things for immigration done and all my stuff WILL be completed by the end of this month! Now just to wait on the procrastinator to get his stuff done. Going to probably get a vegetable roti friday too and might go see Pirates again on saturday. Ryan hasn't seen it and I said I'd see it again. So we shall see. Jen said I can stay with them for as long as I want. Which is good. Because I will be able to pay off one credit card completely, put money in my account for my computer for a year's payments. And even put a big sum on my other card and save up to get there and have money when I get there. I found a cheap dresser at Ikea, for 60 bucks, so the first weekend I am moved in I want to go get it. Need a place to put my clothing afterall. And if I want to paint it, that won't be an issue.

So that's it for now. Oh Irene, I have a question for you about working authorization. They say on various sites that once you reach your port of entry, they stamp your passport and that gives you permission to work until everything else is processed. Is that correct? Yes I will ask the Consulate when I am there, but I just thought I'd ask you. :)

Fare Thee Well Old Computer!

2007-06-03T16:14:00.000-05:00

Packed another box and threw out another black garbage bag of stuff that is not needed. Would do more, but I left the boxes at work! Silly ME!!

Instead, I took out my old computer and took it completely apart. Oh yes... it's in pieces now. The shell is outside in the dumpster. My old monitor is in a recycling bag as to not get wet, and will probably be gone in another hour.. LOL. The insides of my computer however are still sitting around. Except the floppy drive. That is in the garbage bag right now. but the hard drive and motherboard are sitting here waiting for me to destroy it completely. I didn't delete everything off of it when I got my other computer, which is almost 2 years old now! And it has things like emails and various other files that no one needs to find. So I need to bring home the hammer from work and smash it outside into little pieces.

I'd like to take a moment to talk about my old computer. He was wonderful. Never crashed, never had a problem. He was running windows 95 when all others were on Windows 2000. Even on dial up he was still good. He has been through alot with me and I will forever remember him. But he was old and tired. And so I retired him. And now, he has passed on and will go where all good computers go... The Matrix for Heaven bound computers.

Fare Thee Well my Old Dear Friend. I will forever remember you!! *giggling at self for getting teary-eyed.* I hate good-byes of any sort you see. And well my hormones are getting wonky being close to... well you know. He really was a good computer though. My first Windows run computer. Before that was an old Mac.

The Weekend Thus Far

2007-06-03T13:20:00.000-05:00

I saw Pirates of the Caribbean - At World's End yesterday and it was very good! But I love this series so I am rather biased. LOL. My Friend Jen spoiled me rotten, as she paid for me to go, bought me popcorn (child's size is what I always get) AND a Pizza Hut personal pan pizza! She invited me over to her friend Amanda's place for a bonfire too, but I just wanted to come home to talk to my Man, as we didn't get to talk Friday night. Besides, I didn't feel like sitting around drinking and then having to find my way home afterwards. And taking a bus downtown at night is a BIG no-no for me. So I came home talked to my Sweetie for 2.5 hours, then spent the rest of the evening watching TV and posting things on my blogs.

Today I did my bi-monthly body measurements. And considering how much I misbehaved this week I am happy to report no massive inch gain. Just a quarter of an inch in my waist from last weekend (I had to because I made my wieght goal.. LOL), but it's also close to "that" time so I am starting to bloat a bit too. Sorry if that was TMI. ;)

I called John, but he wasn't home, which is fine since the community of Electchester is having a street fair today. He lives in Flushing, but since he's part of Local Union #3, he lives in their housing co-op, which is aptly named Electchester, since it's an Electricial Union. So I called my mom and while we were talking He called. So I talked to him for close to an hour before he headed back out into the street to help out. He is like me and doesn't do well in huge crowds, so he took a break and came inside to his place and called me. And now 25 minutes after we got off the phone I have packed another two boxes. LOL. So now i have eight. I will probably have close to 15 boxes by the time it's all packed up. Which isn't too bad really, considering I have 36 years worth of stuff and some of it just isn't replacable. Actually most of what I have packed is like that. And I have over 100 DVDs which I REFUSE to leave behind so that takes up 2 boxes. John doesn't have any, aside from the Harry Potter ones I bought for him, so I am keeping my collection.. ;)

Anyhow, off to do some more packing and throwing stuff out. Hope y'all are having a great weekend!! :D

Ahhhhhh, finally.. the weekend

2007-06-01T22:53:00.000-05:00

Well today was a good but fairly busy day. Friday afternoon's are always annoyingly steady. But an energy drink helps. I love those things. Especially the Rockstar sugar free one with yerba mate. It's soooooooooo yummy!! Yerba mate is good for you too for many reasons.

My friend Jen is very sweet. She asked me today at work what I am doing tomorrow. I looked at her oddly, as she knows I don't have ANY money and was about to state this, when she just looked at me with a knowing look. Meaning money doesn't matter, she will pay. So I asked her what she had in mind. She wants to go to a movie. So I said sure. We are going to see Pirates of the Caribbean - At worlds End. I am so excited, because I want to see this movie very much. I own the first two and seeing this one is going to be great. I have heard nothing but good things about it.

As such, I have the second one in my DVD player right now as I write this.

Either than that, it's going to probably be a very very quiet weekend. May pack another box or two, not sure. Oh, Irene... speaking of packing, do I have to list each and every little thing in said boxes? Such as, if I have a box filled with DVDs, do they want to know every title, or just what is in the box?

I bought Frizz-Ease products by John Frieda and they really do seem to work! I can't wait until all my damaged, brittle hair has grown out as I have a feeling it's going to look all smooth and sleek. Something I have always wanted with my hair!

Anyhow, that is it for now. Gonna lay down and watch me movie. Hope you have a great weekend!! :D

My Knight - Oh how I adore Thee

2007-05-31T22:31:00.000-05:00

I called my sweetie this evening at the normal time - he didn't answer. I figured he was in the bathroom, which 5 minutes later he called and that is precisely where he was. I was cooking my dinner (mexican style salad, no tortilla). He said to me he has something to say. I said "okay." He said he never wants me to doubt his love for me, or if we are fine (a question I sometimes ask too often - distance can play mindgames on you after a while). He then proceeded to tell me he is going to sell his car. It's parked at his parent's and he doesn't use it. He has no need for it to be honest living in the part of NY he does. I was like "okay." Then he said he is going to sell some of his comics. I started to cry.

You see, his passion is comics. He's been collecting them since he was a little boy. He has thousands of them. Some are worth a pretty penny, let me tell you. I asked him why. He said because he needs to have the money in his account to show immigration he can take care of me. Yes he makes enough per year, but doesn't really have anything in his accounts. Yes he has a 401K, but I am not sure that will count. So he's going to sell his "Hulk #181" which is the first appearance of Wolverine. It's in good condition, therefore is worth around 800 dollars. ANd he said he will go through his comics and sell a few others. I started to cry as I mentioned.

I told him I didn't want him to do that. I told him I didn't him to hold it against me in the future or regret his decision. And he said something to the effect of (I was really emotional so I can't remember his exact words) "I can buy them back one day, or you can buy them back for me one day. But I can only marry you once, and I don't want to risk losing that chance. You are more important."

I burst into tears telling him that has to be the sweetest thing he has ever said to me. I am trying not to cry right now as I write this. I just told my mom this like 30 minutes ago and was totally in tears.

He has already got 3 people interested in his car. One who will be going to see it tomorrow. The selling point was the fact it's EXCELLENT on gas. Twenty dollars a month was all he spent on gas for it and he used it everywhere!

So my baby... My Knight in shining Superhero armor is doing this so he can, as he said to me to tell my mom... "so I can afford my wife."

*starts crying*

We have had our issues... BIG issues, but I always knew there was a reason I kept holding on for us to be together. He's the sweetest man I know and I love him with all my heart and soul. I can't wait for the day I am finally his wife and never have to let him go. never have to leave him again. Never have to say good-bye, except when we are going out with our own friends or off to work. I miss him so very much. I hope these next few months fly by. And that by christmas or January, I will be there, married to him and finally have my BIGGEST dream come true.

Hair

2007-05-31T00:12:00.000-05:00

I have always had problems with frizzy hair. IT's because my hair is actually naturally curly, though now it's more wavy then curly. And lately with the over 2 weeks of rain we've been getting, it's almost crazy how frizzy it is. Anyhow, I put a post in my "LJ" about it and asked if anyone knows any good products to ease the frizz. Well my friend Jessica suggested Frizz-Ease by John Frieda. She has very curly hair... beautiful hair, and that it works for her.

Anyhow, I had a sample of Radiant Red, by John Frieda in the mail weeks ago. I decided to use it today. My hair is now a medium auburn... though I'd like to do red one day. My hair is so soft right now, even after blowing drying it. Sooooooooooo, next pay, I am going to buy his line of Frizz-Ease shampoo and conditioner. HOpefully this will help my frizzies and make my hair grow better.

I am quite excited. Oh yes.. girly girl am I!! :D

I had the Best Time Today!

2007-05-28T01:33:00.000-05:00

Today was just the best day! In fact, this whole weekend was wonderful. Tonight I talked to my Sweetie for just over 3 hours!! He was geeking out over comic books (his passion) and I had such a blast talking with him. We talked about which characters I could dress up as when we go to Comic book conventions. So much fun!! I had a yummy dinner of fish sticks and tater tots! I know, odd to get excited over that, but I haven't had them in YEARS, so it was exciting. Then I had a piece of chocolate cheesecake... Mmmmmmmmmmmm!

Threw out another bag of crap today, but then just did the usual dusting and vacumming.

Talked to my mom and brother, relaxed, fixed a skirt I have that was too big and successfully managed to alter it. And no I don't have a sewing machine - I hand stitched it. I have awesome sewing abilities. :)

It's just been a wonderful day and I am very happy because of it! :D

Today is a big day!

2007-05-27T20:22:00.000-05:00

As most of my friends know, I have been trying to lose alot of weight in just over 2.5 years. I hated being fat. I was 235 pounds. I would cry alot when I was alone, because I didn't like what I saw. I felt like a thin person in a fat person's body and it was just horrible. Then a friend of mine suggested Atkins. I did some research and was happy with what I read so I started it. I lost around 70 pounds on Atkins - in less than a year. Before starting Atkins I lost 20 pounds on Slim fast and just cutting out burgers and fries. After Atkins, I didn't really try for a few months. And I got frustrated again. So I began to watch what I ate again and tried to control the amount of carbs I was eating, but didn't do Atkins again, as I lost alot of hair and I am still trying to get it all full and thick again (though I don't think it will be that way again, but it's MUCH better than when on Atkins). Then I plateau'd again. So I went to e-Diets.com and filled out the free profile and subscribed to their newsletters. I liked what this one man said on there. So I started to watch my calories and it began to happen again. This made me happy. Now over the past 6 months, I have been on again off again. Then in April, I decided to set a goal for myself. To reach 125 pounds by the end of May.

Well there's still a few more days until the end of the month, but I DID IT!! AS OF TODAY I AM 125 POUNDS! I am a size 6 - 10 depending on the brand of clothing.

So now, it's firming this body up more. My abs are more defined, but can be alot better. I still need work on my tummy and thighs, but it's all coming along rather well.

I never thought I'd see the end of this - but I have. Sure, I'll have to watch what I eat forever, but I REFUSE to ever be fat again.... I have lost 110 pounds!

The Big me

And Me a couple of weeks ago!! Yes I know it's on my profile, but still wanna put it here...

I'm a Raving Mad Cleaning Woman!!

2007-05-26T14:48:00.000-05:00

Well today I have thrown out a ton of crap I won't be taking. threw away some of the stuffed animals that mean nothing to me anymore - the others will be packed. I refuse to get rid of all my belongings. I went through my CDs and threw away a bunch of them. Threw away most of my purses. And just a bunch of stuff I don't need anymore. I have three boxes packed. Books, china, and paperwork and pictures and stuff like that. Still ALOT more to go through, but I am getting there and don't seem to be stopping. Just taking more breaks is all.

So that has been my day thus far.

Somebody stop me!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hehehee :D

Progress

2007-05-24T18:56:00.000-05:00

Passport - Check! (Scary pic let me tell ya!)
Long form Birth Cert. - Processed and is sent. Will receive next week. :)
Medical Appointment - June 20th.
Step One - Will be completed friday (tomorrow) and faxed in.

Wow, this is going pretty quickly. Kinda freaky. Now just gotta send my Sweetie the stuff he needs to do with clear, simple instructions from me, so he won't be overwhelmed. He hates paperwork. I think it confuses him.

Police certificate will be done either in the morning of the day of my doctor's appointment or shortly thereafter.
Photos will be done not this pay, but next. Need them for doctors.

This weekend - Start going through all my stuff and throw out or give away the things I don't need or will be too bulky to take. This process makes me sad, but hey, I knew it was going to happen.

So there you have it. What has happened in just this week alone. CRAZY!!

Long Weekends

2007-05-21T16:59:00.000-05:00

You know, you always look forward to a long weekend and then when it's here, you get bored. Most especially when you don't have money to spend to go anywhere. Sure you sleep late, relax, do chores at your own pace as there's no hurry, even take a walk in the sunshine, but still you are bored. Where I'd like to be able to visit is here...

It's Ballynagowan Castle in County Clare Ireland. It's a self catered castle and you can spend an entire week there if you wish. Just you and whomever you bring along. It's small, but the inside pics are quite cozy. It's from the site, www.celticcastles.com. Very awesome site if you ever wish to visit the UK and wish to spend some time in a castle.