Today I was bad and had a little burger with a small fry and gravy at work for my break. Well 30 minutes later, my stomach acids starting going wonky and I got the stupid backache and well it's hours later and is just starting to subside. I have noticed, that when I eat greasy foods, that sometimes I get this. I guess it's indigestion, and well I don't like it. So I made an 4 oz glass of water mixed with 1/2 teaspoon of baking soda and it helped a little.
Also, stress causes it too and I have been stressed with the man the past 24 hours. But I won't go into that. Let's say things are okay with us, that he has tried to reassure me we are fine, but his procrastination of things is getting to me. I told him he can get the employer letters now and wait for the bank letters for another few weeks. That he doesn't have to get all the letters at the exact same time. We shall see. I also told him that sometimes I wonder if he really wants me there. He didn't like that, but I told him that is how I am feeling. He's stressed out over money and that is the worst stress he can have. But then I told him he needs to realize I am stressed out too. That I am not always happy about the fact I am leaving my apartment when I don't even know if we will be accepted. That i am getting rid of my stuff without knowing what the near future holds. That I am leaving behind my country and all I am familiar with and it scares me. I was crying when I said this to him. He said he does understand this. So I told him to start doing his end of the paperwork now, to show me he wants me there. I told him if he is stressed out about money, to STOP SPENDING IT!!! That it won't be forever, but he has to put money away ASAP.
*wary sigh*
I know he loves me, but he just doesn't seem to go full tilt like I am. Lazy? Yeah he can be. Then again, we all can be. I just want to be there and start spending my life with him face to face. I want to snuggle with him. I miss that so very much. He's the best snuggler around. As long as his stuff is done by the end of July, I will be happy. That still gives him one month and 3 weeks. More than enough time to get money put away. Then you'll see a happy girl. Until it's time for my interview. Then I will be stressed big time. Because that will be the yes or no. If a yes is the answer, then you will see me the happiest you have ever seen me, as I am completely in love with my man....
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